Hello, to anyone reading this. i know most will just move on but today i think i have something very important to say especially to all the kid/teenager or even someone in their 20's.
7 out of 10..... that is the number of times i finally had hit the target at a fair. You might think i am crazy at sharing this with you some may even call it bragging but to me it is just stating the facts.
If an year ago someone would have asked me to shoot at something, anything with not even a real gun but the kind you see at fairs i would probably have missed the target by probably a kilo meter if not more. Yes,yes i know i am exaggerating but you still get my point don't you. Never mind, back to the story .... so.. yah, that year we went to a Diwali fair and exhibition where i tried to play this game and literally i missed the mark by a lot even though the balloons were everywhere that new years 'we' meaning my family went to a new years party to some of my parents college friends' house. they had the same kind of gun since their son insisted and fought to have that gun to play with and after a lot of convincing they agreed. Well, it was around 10:30 pm or so when we went to the roof and everyone shot at some targets they had got; when my time came i shot at got nowhere near the target. I was disappointed in myself even though i didn't know how to shoot.
I felt like I let down somebody. Even though this is not the point of the post but just want to throw it out there, even though my situation was not really important or even significant i realised you can't disappoint somebody whether it is your parents, friends or even yourself if you are happy and healthy or in my case don't have a clue about what you are doing ; whether it is about studies or career or even your life partner .You don't or even can not disappoint them if it makes you happy. I think that it is the job of anyone who loves you to be kind, caring and understanding, back to the story: at that moment i well not exactly promised ,but i can't find a better word, myself that i will not go back to the party if i didn't atleast come near the target. Everyone went back to the party except my sister who also wanted to try and shoot the target.
We stayed up there well past 12 am ,new years day began, when i finally hit my target i will always remember how that felt like even though it was a minute feat i felt a rush of achieving something i didn't believe i could do and now i have a score of 7/10 and all 7 were perfect shots. Now you might still find me braggy or Idiotic or something to be sharing this stupid thing with you but i just really want to say; even though millions have said it, i will publish this again i started to believe that day what everyone had been trying to say Believe in the Impossible and It will Become a Reality. Try with something small like getting over the fear of hurt and you will make amazing friend who may or may not leave you in the end but congratulate yourself on putting yourself out there.
I am starting to believe in something else to now. I have conquered so many fears this year and i know one day i will conquer them all. i know not believe in the possibility there is a difference. Remember that. I am starting to believe that God in whatever form you think exists whether a personification or just the universe give you a choice but doesn't plan your destinies. S/He doesn't say that because i sent you there so you will follow my every whim no, s/he says i gave you a mind, a heart, a body, a soul for you to make your own decisions. Do you actually believe that s/he planned for Our Mother Earth to start dying because of us. No s/he created life, soil, earth,air and they are being destroyed not because of some big plan but because of the choice humanity makes.
We make our choices so it is for everyone of Us to Decide whether we want to live a happily ever after, a tragedy or in-between. So my advise to you Choose Carefully.
sorry if i have wasted your time but like always
Thank you for reading
Yours only
Khyati
25.10.2016